It has been one of those weeks. Tired, exhausted, sick, frustrated, aggravating, sleepless, just straight up over it type of week. We all have those and thankfully they don’t come to often for me. But this week has kicked my ass to say the least. B has had pneumonia, planning a wedding and deciding to change everything 8 weeks, I mean 7 weeks out, and trying to work and keep a house up at the same time. I know poor me. I don’t even have kids yet. LOL God only knows what these blogs will look like then. Kinda just made myself laugh. But this is the season I am in right now and that matters to God. No matter where we are he cares. I know he has us in his hands and he is working all of this out even when I don’t see it. I couldn’t be happier with where I am in life. We will always have the up’s and down’s but that is what makes us appreciate everything that much more. I am not always good at the way I relate how I am feeling. I tend to hold things in and act all big and strong and then cry myself to sleep or go hide in the bathroom or closet and have my moment. LOL Sometimes life gets overwhelming and I hate being “that” girl that cries and whines about everything. But, again, it’s ok. If there is one thing I have learned it’s that I am not going to let anyone take my feelings away from me. I am aloud to feel however I want. That doesn’t mean it’s always right or appropriate but we are entitled to our own feelings. And this week all I have wanted to do is cry. Seriously. I had let this wedding planning get way out of hand, out of budget, and not at all what I wanted it to be. I was losing sight of what this getting married thing is all about. It’s not about the place, the people, the dress, the guest list, the food, not even the honeymoon (even though I hear St. Lucia calling my name loud and clear). It’s about B and I. It’s about our love and commitment to each other and the vows we make to each other and before God. Screw the rest-honestly. Of course I want to celebrate with my friends and family but at the end of the day it’s just B and I. So, after getting a hold of myself and getting my sight set back on what really matters I am good. I am still tired. But I am good. I need my handsome fiancé to get better so he can help me with all this craziness. So that has been my focus. Getting him better and reminding myself why we are doing what we are doing. Great plans ahead. Can’t wait to be a Lanham.