Tis So Sweet…Another Kentucky Blog…

Last weekend I decided on another trip to Kentucky. I have been a bit homesick lately and I am not sure why. I guess I don’t have to really have a reason but I have missed my family a lot lately. My gramps is getting older and so is my aunt. I really shouldn’t stay gone for too long. Ya never know when something could happen. Life is SO short. I also went home to be with my sister. She is going through a breakup. Something I am all to familiar with this year. My heart is broken for her. She says she is ok but I know it’s just a front. A front that we all put on bc we think we have to act all big and tough. I am tired of acting all big and tough. It doesn’t get me anywhere except a dark, lonely place. I love my sisters dearly and would literally do ANYTHING for them. Especially when they are in pain. I wish I could just take it all away and make them realize the amazing women that they are. But, I have realized through my own struggles that no  matter how much someone else encourages me and lifts me up, if I am not believing it about myself then it doesn’t really matter. I have seen this played out in my own life. I was trying to encourage my sister while I was home and it wasn’t easy. She is hurt and confused and frustrated and I can’t blame her really. I have been the same so many times before. Since I had gone through my own breakup this year I had been dealing with the same types of feelings she is. I wallowed, I cried, I was pissed, I was relieved, I was hurt, I was bitter. And then one day I let it all go. And that’s what I wanted for her so much in that moment. I want her to feel the happiness and freedom that I now feel being on the other side of those crazy feelings and emotions I was having. I can only hope and pray that she doesn’t hang on to the hurt, the unforgiveness, the bitterness that comes along with a broken heart. She is strong, beautiful, smart, and has SO much to offer someone. She just needs to start believing that about herself. And when that happens, it’s a game-changer. Things will never be the same for her and she will start a new chapter. I am excited for her. I can’t wait for her to feel that freedom and happiness that I do. It tastes so sweet. 

 

 

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